I only caught a glimpse of it for a moment. I could try to draw it but even if I did, it wouldn't really help explain what it was like.
[ She contemplates it for a moment; there's a brief smudge on the page, as if she started to set some kind of image she was picturing into it but thought better of it at the last moment. ]
I suppose it wasn't so much that the creature looked strange as how it felt to be near it. When it was around, I could barely even bring myself to glance in the direction that I knew it was.
And aside from that, just being near it made me feel as though I wasn't myself anymore. It was like there were more of me, if that makes any sense.
wait, naminé? this sounds a lot weirder than just something you dream about. you said you saw this in the last world you were in? how long were you there?
I was there for several months, although it was a little hard to keep proper track of time. That creature was only there briefly, though. They wouldn't let it or any of the others stay for long. I think they thought it was too dangerous.
[ Which was a lot more help than she would have expected from their prison guards at the time, but... There's a brief pause as she considers how much to admit to Sora, but since he's asked directly, ]
Yes. There were monsters. They appeared every now and again, but we were never really sure what else might have been out there since the woods made it hard to be certain.
[ It's hard to be honest sometimes, especially when causing him concern is just what she wanted to avoid, but-- ]
You could say it was a little like Halloweentown, yes. It's just that the people who wanted to scare us there weren't as nice about it. Other than the others trapped there with me, though, we didn't see anyone else most of the time. Whoever it was that was keeping us there, they stayed well hidden.
[ Did she get hurt? That might depend on how one defines the term. There's a long beat before she answers, then, ]
Some things happened, but I was safer than a lot of people.
[That really doesn't sound like a no. And Sora feels some dread because of it. Because of how he is he feels a little guilty that he wasn't there for her in that place. A place so far away from everything they know. Dangerous and scary.]
hey namine? could you tell me more about this place sometime? not with the journals i mean. can you come over soon?
[He wants to talk with her more about this. But he doesn't feel like the journals are a great place to do it.]
[ Despite her desire not to cause him any worry, she didn't quite anticipate further questions because of it. That's rather counterproductive for her hopes of avoiding the subject, and faltering, she gets through part of the letter 'I' before stopping, then continuing a beat later. ]
I can come over whenever you like.
[ That'd be a nice thought were she not so preoccupied; after so long, they've finally got the opportunity to meet and talk so easily. At the moment, though, she's busy preemptively imagining how to describe the past. ]
And I'll answer any questions that you might have about it. But [ and there's a hovering pause here, too, ] only if you're sure that you want to know.
[Truthfully, Sora started this conversation as a way to joke and chat with her for a little while. He hadn't meant to bring up such bad memories. But it makes Sora realize just how much he doesn't know about her outside of what he knows.]
yeah, i definitely want to know. i wanna know more about you, namine. that's important to me.
come over soon, okay? i'll catch up with you soon.
[ There's a lot of complicated history in her life that it's easy to stray too close to without intending as much. Perhaps if Naminé were less honest a girl, there'd be less risk to it - but alas, she finds it hard to deny anyone a truthful answer, Sora especially.
Which causes her some amount of nervous fluttering in her ribcage when he mentions wanting to know her. How much does she dare tell him? How much can she safely tell him, without jeopardizing anything? But, with the same amount of truth, ]
I'd like that too, Sora. It seems like a lot of things have happened for both of us since we last met before coming here. It'll be good to finally catch up.
[ She's holding her breath without meaning to. Letting it out with a bit of force, ]
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even if I did, it wouldn't really help explain what it was like.
[ She contemplates it for a moment; there's a brief smudge on the page, as if she started to set some kind of image she was picturing into it but thought better of it at the last moment. ]
I suppose it wasn't so much that the creature looked strange as how it felt to be near it.
When it was around, I could barely even bring myself to glance in the direction that I knew it was.
And aside from that, just being near it made me feel as though I wasn't myself anymore.
It was like there were more of me, if that makes any sense.
[ So yeah, definitely spooky. ]
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were there a lot of monsters or something?
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That creature was only there briefly, though. They wouldn't let it or any of the others stay for long.
I think they thought it was too dangerous.
[ Which was a lot more help than she would have expected from their prison guards at the time, but... There's a brief pause as she considers how much to admit to Sora, but since he's asked directly, ]
Yes. There were monsters.
They appeared every now and again, but we were never really sure what else might have been out there since the woods made it hard to be certain.
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from the looks of it you were in some sort of scary world? like halloweentown but worse? did you get hurt there?
[Maybe this would be a better conversation face-to-face...]
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You could say it was a little like Halloweentown, yes.
It's just that the people who wanted to scare us there weren't as nice about it.
Other than the others trapped there with me, though, we didn't see anyone else most of the time.
Whoever it was that was keeping us there, they stayed well hidden.
[ Did she get hurt? That might depend on how one defines the term. There's a long beat before she answers, then, ]
Some things happened, but I was safer than a lot of people.
[ Doesn't sound like a 'no,' Naminé. ]
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hey namine? could you tell me more about this place sometime? not with the journals i mean. can you come over soon?
[He wants to talk with her more about this. But he doesn't feel like the journals are a great place to do it.]
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I can come over whenever you like.
[ That'd be a nice thought were she not so preoccupied; after so long, they've finally got the opportunity to meet and talk so easily. At the moment, though, she's busy preemptively imagining how to describe the past. ]
And I'll answer any questions that you might have about it.
But [ and there's a hovering pause here, too, ] only if you're sure that you want to know.
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yeah, i definitely want to know. i wanna know more about you, namine. that's important to me.
come over soon, okay? i'll catch up with you soon.
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Which causes her some amount of nervous fluttering in her ribcage when he mentions wanting to know her. How much does she dare tell him? How much can she safely tell him, without jeopardizing anything? But, with the same amount of truth, ]
I'd like that too, Sora.
It seems like a lot of things have happened for both of us since we last met before coming here.
It'll be good to finally catch up.
[ She's holding her breath without meaning to. Letting it out with a bit of force, ]
I will.
Talk to you soon.
[ For better or for worse. ]